TRANSITION: Intuition – logical, illogical or both?

Its been an interesting week – blissful moments of quiet and inner peace and yet outwardly my life situation hasn’t changed. Small signs from the Universe have reminded me that what and where you focus your attention is drawn to you, and my faith has strengthened.

I have made decisions that have been completely based on my intuition and supported by my faith. Some of these decisions go completely against my cerebral logic and reason, and yet the internal calm remains present, the ‘rightness’ apparent. The key now is to stay connected to that feeling, that state of being and avoid connecting to the sense of anxiety.

It is also essential to stay in this calm place for my own sense of health and well-being. The ego voice of reason and practicality has the capacity to send me into a panic and create levels of stress, and distress. It would be disrespectful and detrimental to ignore this physical and mental state of being, should I find myself drawn to this alternate, and I would need to choose differently in order to alleviate the pressure.

I have not reached that point at this time.

What has been fascinating to explore is the concept that decisions guided by intuition traditionally don’t follow logic and reason, and yet those decisions are (in my experience) the ones that end up making the most sense. So in some way, listening to your intuition and acting on that guidance would seem to be completely reasonable. To disregard such authentic information, that can potentially guide you in the right direction seems illogical.

And yet so often the information defies what we already know, it defies what we know to be logical.

But we all do it. We all ignore our intuition, our gut instinct or sixth sense. We second-guess ourselves and often over think decisions, losing our first “intuition” and going with something that usually ends with the comment, “I should have gone with my first thought”.

Right now I don’t have any physical proof of my certainty. No track record logic to back-up my decisions. All I have is my intuition telling me that I have made the right decisions, and the presence of that same internal calm, in spite of the outward conditions that surround me.

Logic tells me that I can’t possibly know, and yet I do. Following my intuition is logical and that is what I will continue to do. To listen, to believe and to have faith…and to let go.

TRANSITION: Belligerent Determination

How can you find balance when you have to focus on one major task?

In the last week I have spent much of my energy and focus on sorting through hundreds of possible apartments, scheduling time to view them, packing up my home and trying to maintain some semblance of routine. It has not been easy.

I have also spent time in meditation and quiet reflection, with the purpose of surrendering myself to this situation and handing it over to a greater power – waiting for Divine intervention or inspiration. I don’t appear to have received that quite yet, but I am hopeful and remain attentive!! I still find myself feeling moments of panic and my ability to hold on to my faith wanes at times as the move date looms. The main source of this sense of foreboding is that everywhere I turn I am reminded that proof of a steady income is required to rent, and of course, I opted out of that when I decided to start working on my new career path.

Is it any wonder I am questioning everything!

I use my meditation to quieten my ego and tap into the power of creative visualization. To remember to believe in myself, and in my power to create anything I choose. I am striving, day-to-day, to create balance between what needs to be done on a practical level, what needs to be done on an intuitive level, and what is important to do regardless of other distractions – namely the work I do to help others. All this is vital in creating the life I want.

In the middle of the packing, of apartment searching and viewing, and the job search (a stable income – not necessarily back in the corporate world), it is vital to my soul to include time on my Intuitive Counseling/Life Coaching work. It is also essential to balance out each day with fun, laughter and light-heartedness.

I haven’t mastered it yet. Hey, I haven’t even come close to ensuring all elements are given equally proportionate time. But I’m working on it.

It helps that I am stubborn, bull-headed and an eternal optimist. It helps that I have learnt to raise my voice at the Universe, hurl out my indignations and frustrations, and then in turn, humbly be grateful for all that I do have right now.
Despite feeling (at times) that this is too hard to overcome, I refuse to give up on my dream, or be derailed. I will do whatever it takes to make this work – not just fix it, but do it differently to create a joy-filled, purposeful life. There is so much I want to do, what I already see myself doing, and in order to achieve and sustain this, it requires a certain sense of belligerent determination.

It would seem that I have ample of that in reserve.

And that’s a blessing in itself.

TRANSITION: Staying the Course

It has been a couple of weeks into my decision and the initial euphoria is beginning to wane and give way to the reality of the day to day choices and challenges of being self-employed. I am still much happier than I have been in years and I know that I have made the right choice, even if there has yet to be a financial return. I continue to be filled with ideas and inspirations regarding my business and new life path but I admit to being surprised at how much longer things take to get “just right”.

Every day brings forth new challenges, and additional information that I could not have anticipated when I started, making the choices seem endless. There have been a couple of starts over the past few weeks that have come to a complete stop, or changed direction entirely. And I am certain there will be more of the same as I continue to develop and grow my business, and my new life.

All of this is quite manageable, but I have yet to fully throw myself into the service side of the business. I realize that I need to set a deadline for finishing the necessary foundation building of the business to ensure that I don’t become trapped in perpetually creating, and not doing. I understand the importance of a solid foundation, but at the same time, dotting i’s and crossing t’s can end up being a little tedious and take the excitement out of the momentum.

Add to this the quiet gnawing of uncertainty, and the primal instinct of survival and it becomes a challenge to stay focused and inspired to continue on this new path. The old familiar path is tempting and also has a proven track record for working. This new path is exactly that – NEW, and completely unproven.

So now it becomes a test of Trust and Faith. A test of keenly tuning in to my intuition, and finding the strength to act on that information, even when my primal instinct kicks in and I feel the pull to go with the safe choice. It is a time of putting aside my ego (not easy) and balancing my decisions with intuition and common sense, while at the same time not losing sight of my goals or creating additional stress and chaos.

It’s about staying the course, despite outside factors battering down your wall of resolve. It’s about taking one day at a time, and doing all you can in that moment with the best intention and utmost authenticity.

Today I feel the pressure of outside factors knocking on my wall, I feel the pull of my survival instinct, but I still believe in the direction I am going and the choices I am making, and so I will stay the course.